23/4/14

Recently I've been feeling a little bit demotivated and not very unproductive, although yesterday was quite a good day. I find my works progress to be slow and I am spending a lot of time beginning ideas and finding out that they're not possible or just not very good. I'm also worried about the amount of time I have left as I feel like I'm running out of it, especially as I'm still developing and haven't started designing, when my aim was to be designing all this week allowing me to begin making next week. I find the whole situation very frustrating especially as I'm getting behind and I cannot afford to do that. So in order to work efficiently and effectively I think I need to stop over thinking ideas and just do them and not be scared of whether or not they come out bad. I learnt this from today as I noticed that I tend to overthink ideas and then not actually complete them which is slowing me down and I'm producing unsatisfactory work. 

I wanted to develop off of yesterdays collage designs so I could produce something a bit more refined. This is where I struggled and wasted time. As when I was drawing I rubbed out my ideas many times. I didn't struggle with designing as I enjoy this, it was more I was finding it difficult to draw which I don't often struggle with but I wanted my designs to be on models that would show a bit more movement as apposed to my usual very straight and regimented way or drawing. I think where I was going wrong was I didn't really know what I wanted to draw and I was hesitant, thats why when I would try and draw something the proportions would be off and I wouldn't be able to design off of them well. Although after spending more time on this than I wanted to I worked through this problem and identified what I wanted to draw. I'm pleased with these designs because they feel and look good and they show my ideas off well which is important. Although from this it has defiantly confirmed that I am too much of a perfectionist, which then leads me to wasting time on trying to get my work to a high standard. However I feel that I would rather do this than have elements of my work to be very week and then other elements to be strong. 

So that was the work I did today, not a lot, that's why I didn't stay late at uni so I could go home and get some work done. Which was just adding refinements or adjustments to previous work and also to sort out my blog a bit. Nothing too major in my project as felt that possibly stepping away from the development stage for a night would help me and allow me to clear my work. As well as this my reading through previous blog posts I was able to reflect on my work and understand what I might do next in my developments. I also decided instead of staying up late I would go to bed at a reasonable hour and intend to get into uni early tomorrow as I think this way I can make the most of the day. As I am planning for tomorrow to be very different from today and I hope that I'll be able to get a lot of work done and further my progress.